Well, that was unexpected

I’m not quite sure how one goes back to sleep after having a dream of an old classmate throat slash himself in the kitchen, prompting a mad dialing of emergency services you know will arrive too late to do anything for him.

It was a far more graphic and visceral experience than most of my dreams. And I admit, I can have some real doozies. Usually, the gore is suggested. This dream was “in full Technicolor” and detailed.

I’m half-expecting to read something about him in the local news, it was so vivid. The other part is “don’t be absurd, J would never do anything like that.”

Except, my brain reminds me, that’s exactly the kind of thing he’d do if he wanted a ticket out of here.

As I said, I’m not sure how one goes back to sleep after a dream like that.


12 responses to “Well, that was unexpected”

  1. missparker0106 Avatar

    Perhaps it’s time to contact him.

    1. michael raven Avatar

      Normally, I would agree. However, it’s probably best that I don’t.

      I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve carried him only for him to run off and leave me behind when the crisis is past to hang out with the folks who are much cooler than I. And he’s the kind of guy who attracts crises. Big ones, usually.

      But blood brothers and all that, right?

      Too bad it took me thirty years to realize it was all one-sided. I’m tired of being burned.

      So, no. I probably won’t check in.

      1. lyndhurstlaura Avatar

        So perhaps it was your subconscious just making sure that you’d got the message? Maybe read a book to get back to sleep.

        1. michael raven Avatar

          I certainly got the message this time. But I got it the last time he talked big about getting together more often and then never returned my texts. I gave up after that. And then… He has a crisis. Again. I got smart and set boundaries. Haven’t heard from him since, although he was welcome to contact me. Just not to pick up his pieces again.

          1. lyndhurstlaura Avatar

            I’ve known people like that. Walking away is the best, ans setting boundaries in case they come back is best. I think our brains send us a reminder sometimes, just to make sure we haven’t forgotten.

  2. chrisnelson61 Avatar

    Strange how things manifest in the sleeping mind.
    Dead relationships? Perhaps.

    1. michael raven Avatar

      That relationship has been in a persistive vegetative state for about 20 years. I see few reasons not to pull the plug entire other than a weakness for the memories.

  3. Bridgette Avatar

    Oh, that sounds really upsetting. Sending you a hug.

    1. michael raven Avatar

      Thanks Bridgette. I’m not usually unsettled quite so much by horrifying dreams, but this was was a bit more vivid than typical.

      1. Bridgette Avatar

        I’ve had those and they linger for a long time. Hoping you can find a way to blur it some over time.

        I had a reoccurring, very vivid nightmare my entire childhood. It ended around middle school, but the imagery has never fully left me. I’ve some thoughts of how it prepared me for a few things…but maybe that’s a reach.

  4. Jennifer Neal Avatar

    Eeek, that’s a rough one

    1. michael raven Avatar

      Thankfully, the images have finally faded. It took a few days, however…

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