Half-penny thoughts — 06apr26

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A little bit of venting this Monday morning. If you are not into health-related posts or venting in general, you probably can skip this post.

About twenty years ago, I went to a general practitioner with an earnest complaint about some generalized pain I was experiencing that I couldn’t explain. It was sometimes in my joints, and sometimes muscular. Sometimes both. I asked what it might be, acknowledging that it might have some of the source being in arthritis. I also suggested that because my mother had been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, that it might be a factor in my increasing frequency of inexplicable pain.

She laughed out loud at my suggestion. And I mean, nothing held back at all.

“Men do not, I repeat, DO NOT get fibromyalgia,” she informed me between wiping away the tears of amusement.

She was wrong in so many ways. Because then she told me I was too young to have rheumatoid arthritis (RA). Except her preliminary, non-specific test suggested that I might have it (there’s this thing called “juvenile rheumatoid arthritis” that she apparently had never heard of, and I was in my 30s, so I quite easily could have had it). She referred me to a rheumatologist, who did give me a more specific test (non-conclusive) and decided I was positive, ergo I had RA.

To her credit, what little I will grant her, she at least did bloodwork. The doctor before her diagnosed me with being overweight and refused to consider any other possibilities.

The short version of what follows is that I took multiple drugs that did nothing to combat my perceived pain for over a decade, but did a number on my organs. Toxic stuff, y’know. The cure might be worse than the disease. And refused to run that more specific blood test when I told him that I had been sober for over a year and wondered if the meds were not working because the inflammation markers were from my alcoholism. “Stay the course” was what he would say every time I would mention the lack of pain relief.

Well, finally those drugs damaged my liver enough that a different rheumatologist gave me steroids to give my liver a break. Which apparently pushed me from being borderline diabetic (poor eating and high alcohol consumption partly to blame) to full-on diabetic. My body has never gone back since. Type-two diabetes is liver-adjacent in many ways, just to point something out. A fatty (alcoholic) liver that is under duress from toxic meds has a harder time processing glucose/glycogen conversion.

I gave up on RA drugs because they are immunosuppressants during covid. My pain neither increased significantly, nor did it go away.

I was tested by a practitioner who wanted to get to the bottom of my pain (but his clinic closed because investors bailed on the startup). He reran the standard tests and came up… negative. On all counts.

I’ve been off RA meds for 4 years. In a recent clinical visit to a new practitioner, she decided to run it again (her predecessor at the clinic had also run it two years ago). Negative and still in chronic pain.

Her tentative diagnosis this morning after reviewing my bloodwork and based on her exam? Fibromyalgia with complications from osteoarthritis and type 2 diabetes

I couldn’t come up with a better punchline if I tried.


I know some of you folks suffer from chronic pain. I have some good ideas of things that work on a temporary basis for mitigating my pain, and I have a good sense of what I might do — but I am curious how other (with arthritis and/or fibro, especially) handle pain management to see if I can learn new techniques. Tell me below if you have your own tips for these or other chronic ailments that might apply.

Or, have you ever had such a ridiculous journey only to end up where you thought you were when you started? Even though, you shouted from the passenger seat, that you thought the car was going in the wrong direction the whole time? [“Just shush, you! I’m a PROFESSIONAL™!” and yes, I was pointedly told that several times on this journey when I questioned their judgments.]

Have you ever had someone be so absolutely wrong about something important like your health? Rant below.


6 responses to “Half-penny thoughts — 06apr26”

  1. lodestarwytch Avatar

    I was put with a Psychologist for help with my OCD. The problem – my Psychologist didn’t believe in OCD 🤯

    1. michael raven Avatar

      Oh, FFS. I thought that was settled as being “a thing”. It’s different if they didn’t think it applied to you, but to outright disregard it as a possible diagnosis? Absurd.

      How did they explain your symptoms? I’m guessing general anxiety or something like that (which might be the same treatment, as far as I know).

  2. Chico’s Mom Avatar

    I’m sorry all this happened. 🙏🏻

    In my 30’s, I went to the doctor and had a Barium Sallow done. You drink this white chalky stuff, get strapped to a table; the table moves as x-rays are taken following the liquid. When it was over, the doctor walks in, hands me a pamphlet and says, you have GERDS. And walks out. Now, years later, we are looking at x-rays again and a Bravo study. This study, I swallow a micro chip that measures the amount of stomach acid I’m producing over two days.

    In my 30’s, I was young, scared and convinced myself that if the doctor wasn’t concerned why should I be? Now, 20 years later, I’m pissed. Mad at myself for not taking a stand. And the doctor for being so flip. I have been to the doctor three times in 20 years thinking I was having a heart attack when it was acid reflux.

    Sidebar: the worst thing you can be in this country is FAT. All your problems would go away if you’d just loose weight. 😡

    1. michael raven Avatar

      That’s kind of how I feel. A little pissed because my pain was dismissed, then misdiagnosed, and then made worse b/c of the misdiagnosis. Meanwhile, my rheumatologist was out on the golf course based on his quarterly fees he collected for my misdiagnosis and continued “checkups”. Yes, literally.

      Yeah, and of course it’s always shaming that they do to you: “Calories in versus calories out”, implying that if you just worked harder than you are, everything would be so much better for you — “it’s probably your fault that you aren’t losing weight or feeling better”. I hate the fat shaming of medical professionals. I’m overweight, but not fat, and I still get the shaming treatment in almost every visit. What kills me are the ones that are overweight themselves telling me to lose weight. Sigh.

      Sorry. I know you have had a similarly frustrating health journey. 😢

      1. Chico’s Mom Avatar

        I had a GP that I’d been going to for years. The in between the horrible pamphlet thrower and now. The last time I saw him he wanted to put me Monjauro (that might be spelt wrong.) I am not a diabetic. Though it does run in my family. I left. Found someone else. If I can help it, the pamphlet thrower will never happen again.

      2. Chico’s Mom Avatar

        I’m in the part of the journey now where I’m going to fix this. So I have to stop drinking my beloved Mt. Dew because it has citric acid in it. 😢 I can have one as an occasional treat. One meal at a time, I will fix this.

        I have a friend that has psoriasis. This person learned that eating red meat makes it so much worse. Have you tried an elimination diet to see if some of your go to foods are making you feel worse?

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