• Only Just

    There was a dreaming of that narrow living room, and my place directing from the far corner: move stage right, turn down bass, less delay, crouch as if in pain, sing it again…

    You thought some suggestions were madness, but weren’t we all actors in the theatre of the absurd? That’s okay, I would find myself saying again, I pushed too hard and I understand that you cannot see what the madman sees.

    Ignore them when they said that bass can’t sing, can’t chord, just play that thing. And so he did, like he was wont to anyway. I was both superfluous and absolutely necessarily all the same.

    What use was my lingering? Affection, I suppose. Maybe a little spite as well.

    Just like that faded dream.

    Along came a summons. Paired with a wonder: Was it only just a dream?

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  • Wandered wood

    I think you wandered wood with me, back before we were young — your laughter trailing out behind you in scarlet ribbons as I follow, stepping over the old deadfall log, under the lichened overhanging stone. We wore horns, you and I, mine forked fingers and yours living bone, and we tore through the overgrowth, and under ossified bone.

    Hallo, hallo, you said to me, I have become oak. And you stood tall and elder on the hill over the bog. The bone white birch laughed as they swayed under your canopy and the frogs’ voices rose to a terrible storm.

    For my part, I longed to be fox and I curled my burning tail around we for added warmth in the den you offered up for to be my home. I barked as the moon hid her face behind a mask of clouds, content to be held within you.

    And we held things that way until the autumn came and then winterfall, the burning of my tail meant to keep us warm.

    Through cruel months we held.

    It was the waking that broke the spell.

    How I hated that dismal sound. That breaking, shattering our song.

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  • drawn

    i stone of bone flint smoke
    i acorn of mandrake
    mistletoe and thorn
    i mantic the needle pine --
    can you ache of sickle moon?
    then draw me down
    into your loam
    down into your song
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  • tired long

    perhaps it is only
    because i am tired,
    if so
    i have been tired
    for a very long time
    but i have not
    been able to dream
    those kinds of dreams
    in a very long while, or
    i realize those dreams
    were never meant
    for me

    so i carve them away
    with rust-pitted blades
    at the end of a tired
    long day
    watching dreams
    slip down the drain

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  • Hei, Skogkatter — 25jul26

    Well, everyone is settling in just fine. One of my older cats would probably be jealous that I am allowing the new guys into my office, but there is an element of training me as much as these two on that — I had a bad experience with losing electronic gear to investigative gnawing and I have to get the courage to accept that I can train them to not chew such things.

    As promised, here are some photos done on a higher quality camera with some software lighting and color corrections. They were both thoroughly played out when I took these photos earlier and they became comatose shortly thereafter. It was the only way to get the to sit still.

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  • Hei, Skogkatter — 24jul26

    It’s been a long day, but everyone is settling in their new home. Pictures are incoming, I just want to get a handful more to choose from before posting anything,

    Two and a half hours drive, more time than intended or expected getting to know everyone — cats and breeders —Three hours drive back (rush hour) and a full evening of acclimating. First, alone in the basement. Then doing a switcheroo and acclimating alone in the main level of the rambler.

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  • knowing, of sorts

    i hold to storm sky and
    give to barrow flint
    recalling all these
    dreams i am, knapped
    to a razors' edge
    at the scrape of bone

    chill, cast shattered
    each wonton drop
    for the fell heather,
    scree to quench the day

    i ache to not
    ache to know

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  • Sure thing, Boss…

    We’re game. Where’re we headin’?

    Tomorrow threatens to be interesting.

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  • bramble gate

    down along that night river
    just a wee drink to forget
    boots wet at the bank
    with these soles worn thin

    maybe, baby, i'm never
    gonna find my way back
    from this bramble gate
    cos two coins, i have, and
    some lives like mine are
    bought on the cheap

    cats laughing in lead*
    as they swap laps, boiling
    from red vinyl seats
    in a wrinkled mirror—
    searing way down

    already, i am ready
    to burn october, and
    maybe, baby, i don't
    want to find my way
    back to the place
    where i come from

    * the Pb type; ask Robert Plant about it if confused

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  • Hardware

    I recently decided to take the plunge and get a hardware synth to stop my dallying and futzing around with software emulation of synths.

    For several years now, I’ve intended to lean less on pre-loaded patches and work on an understanding towards how a patch is created from the basic soundwave (sine, saw, square, pulse, etc.) and massaged into the sounds you hear in music — whether it is someone like Depeche Mode or cinema’s Vangelis.

    I have played with the software synths on my digital audio workbench (DAW), and purchased a few other software variants in an attempt to find something that “clicks” with this wee walnut I store where most folks store a brain.

    Not a one clicked.

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